Been focusing too intensely on the God of suicide and I am just going to assume that this is not what everyone else is doing? Which sorta adds to feeling lonely,. Alone and cast-out for being and also Knowing what a life of torture really is,.. I can not tell if posting these current thoughts is helping me at all,.. With The constantly increasing isolationism's feeding itself with itself followed by night terrors again and over again,, sleeping is, really useless -- mind tricks that torture me // when hospitals really should stop trying to compete with my insane dream terrors,..there is no real comparison at all,..
5 or more new voices talking in my head right now,.. Mocking my every word,..it is difficult to see how people are grateful about,.. Anything - still I go on , there is no joy in my life it is merely just a mockery of my choices,..and how I live,..@@@@ I do not curse them for fear of the real people striking back, as the have in a grand misunderstanding ,,,
temporal - time/focused thoughts developed by crunching time/\loops out of their realities (both negative and positive realities of a non-special type and nature) were is the reason and logic now.? the random loss of meaning and ambiguous verifications of nothingness is understood for what they are. usually we just carry on ... our luggage and leave the rest.